I have never posted this kind of thread here, although I have never condemned those who do, and certainly cant now that I am about to. I dont think the after hours lounge is a therapy chat room, but every now and then we all just need a little advice and encouragement. I HATE my job. It is not what I ever intended to do while I was earning my degree, but job offers were not abundant and I took what I thought was the best at the time. I do client service work related to IT, and I really dont feel comfortable being any more specific than that. My schedule is very volitile. Sometimes I feel like I have nothing to do, and other times the work load is so heavy that I would rather quit on the spot than face having to finish what I'm working on. A lot of times, the heavier the workload gets the less productive I get. I have a TON of stuff to do now, and have done very little this morning becuase I am too overwhelmed and depressed. I also have to travel for work sometimes, and that is even worse. While traveling, we typically have to spend 12-13 hours a day at the client, with only a 15-30 minute lunch, usually eaten in the conference room we are set up in. Then we leave, and stop for a quick dinner or take it back to the hotel room and eat and then work some more. Also, I dont work in a very well respected field in general, so working with the clients is rarely fun or rewarding. When I did my internship in college, I worked under some network administrators. I loved it, because I was usually providing end user support which meant I was helping people. I have tried to find a similar job, but the skill requirements for mid-level IT personnel right now is insane. Jobs that pay what I need to meet my financial obligations require more experience than what would earn you $80, $90 $100K + a few years ago. And now they pay half as much. My coworkers make matters worse. They glorify everything that I hate about the job. I really dont know if they are serious or if they are just trying to delude themselves. They laugh at the clients that work 8 or 9 hour days. They take pride in the fact that they are ruthless and I have been told that I am too nice to the client and too trusting. In general, they are constantly making fun of clients that are perfectly hard working people. They feel so self important. One bit of consolation is the fact that I know I'm not the only one in this situation. In the specific are of the industry that I work in, the average tenure of people hired at the staff level has dropped to 1 year! Its burn-out city. Of course that doesnt help the fact that I cant get out. Our department is only 11 people now and in the past year and a half, 5 have left. Plus there are three people including myself that are considering leaving in the next year. Turnover is insane. I have listed with a couple head hunters and have come up empty handed so far. The more I try to find something else and fail, the more depressed I get. I also have a fear of even applying for jobs in case my employer finds out, and due to the industry I work in, I am limited to where I can apply. I dont know what to do any more. I cant talk to my boss, because my complaints cannot be "fixed". Its the nature of the business. Also, they are notoriously hard on complainers. I cannot quit and look full time, because my wife and I have two car payments and a house payment (living the american dream ) I almost wish I would get fired, but I know that would actually not help in the long run. My situation is becoming a burden on all my relationships. It is always on my mind. I had fridays because I know the weekend will be to short, I hate saturdays because I know the next day is sunday and thats the last day of the weekend. I hat sundays of course because I have to go back to work. How messed up is that. I feel like that guy on office space. Every day is worse than the one before, so every day is the worst day of my life. I have a lot of good things going for me and should feel lucky, but they are eclipsed by my misery. Oh well, thanks for listening.