just like indiana jones did when he didn't look into the ark. just like luke did when he didn't go down the dark side. just like that elf chick did when she didn't take the ring -- i now know i have the strengh and willpower to do the same. my future entrance into the pearly gates is ensured. how do i know this? i will now tell you. last night, i had IN MY HANDS the new star-wars trilogy dvd box-set. there must have been a couple hundred sitting there, on the floor, just staring back at me. i looked at them in awe. i picked one up (IN MY HANDS), still unsure if i was hallucinating or not. i gently caressed the case, looked lovingly over the artwork. i gently tapped it against my skull to make sure it was solid. i began to think about it. yes, i admit it. i was going to go out to the register and have it rung up. i was already envisioning myself at home, watching this on my 65" rptv, sub-woofer cranked up (just a tad...for the special occasion), just wondering what the death-star explosion would sound like. all this flashed in my mind within seconds. i couldn't put it back...i just couldn't. i walked with it IN MY HANDS and proceeded towards the warehouse door. i actually got out onto the floor with the thing...IN MY HANDS. was it worth it i asked myself? was this something i could live with the rest of my life? or is it a secret i was willing to take the the grave? well, at the very last moment (i could see the digital clock countdown in my head...it read "00:00:03"), i decided it wasn't right. it wasn't a good thing. the negative karma energy would engulf me ten-fold if i did this. the world would cease to exist as we know it. i'm so proud of myself today. i feel like i could climb a mountain, jump out of an airplane ... or even get the f**k back to work. edit - i just realized this post has kind of a religious tone to it...sorry not the intent. i'm just being stupid. if a mod wants to edit my title/content -- feel free.