- Jan 10, 2002
I want to write. I want to write something good. I want to write something great. I start the ball rolling and I feel real proud of myself and confident about what I'm writing while I'm doing it. It's a great feeling. Then I get up for a drink or something, I come back to the computer screen and read what I typed out less than five minutes ago and say "Well that blows!" I'm in this rut in which I can't be creative. I don't know how to be creative. Everytime I try to write I find myself rather than trying to find my own voice and style trying to emulate someone else's. It's
usually always Aaron Sorkin too. I don't know if it's a good thing to be striving to be something better than myself or if it's stupid to be over reaching as such. I want to write something good and I don't know how. I don't know if it's like playing the piano or if it's something some people just have and some people just don't. I want this so bad. I want to make something good. (Moving into eye rolling territory here) I want to move people in a way that I see most entertainment today doesn't. I see something that's relatively lukewarm or meek and say "I could do better than that" but I can't! I don't know how to write in the intangible rhythms I want to. I'm talking mostly dialogue here now. I don't know if it's something that has to be pursued until a true level of greatness is reached or if it's just something you have or you don't. Have any other writers here ever felt like this? I want to make something good. What's my next move?