Hello there, all.
Yes, indeed, Mike Frezon is checking up on this. And this is, you can bet, truly the one and only JB -- of 2001: A Space Odyssey "fame," and, more recently, Mulholland Drive infatuation.
Mike had wondered about the legitimacy of the post, since this in an all-new account. Simple explanation: I could not figure out how to log onto my old account (remember, it had a new Mulholland Drive image on it).
[color=#0000ff;]MODERATOR'S NOTE: We have since updated Jack's first two posts in this thread to fall under his long-standing account after we were able to help him gain access to that account. --Mike Frezon[/color]
As stated in an earlier post, it is correct: I am writing this in a public library in South Central Los Angeles, which, as I wrote Mike, is where the shelter I am staying at nights is located.
One thing I did not mention: My sister, Dee, who was my closest remaining relative, died in July of 2011. And, as I stated to Mike, no family, no fallback.
I will say, though, it feels good to be saying something out there into the Internet and to, finally, be hearing back from someone. In the past few months, as all started to fall apart, I have learned what the word "alone" can truly mean. And, I will say this: I would not wish this, even on an enemy.
An enemy right now, though, for me, is simply not knowing what is coming. And, as for this Tennessee thing, well, something I have never mentioned on this site in all my years here: That is where I come from originally. I moved to California, to Los Angeles, in the year 1987. My late sister had lived here since 1966, and after our mother died I was free to pick up and start "chapter two" of my life, leaving behind an ex-wife in the process.
(I sometimes wonder if I would have done it had I known what the future held in store. That I cannot answer.)
As I said in my original post, you only start to realize what truly is important in your life when it is put in such stark perspective. And homelessness is as stark a perspective as I can imagine in my present situation. (You hear about falling to the bottom rung of society in this economy. Let me tell all of you -- each and every one of you -- that when one is homeless, one is below that bottom rung.)
Thing is, I am not bitter, just scared. But at least I have a plan of sorts, which is, after twenty-seven years in the state I most love, California, returning to Tennessee. I do not really want to do that, but, to my thinking, it is what I have to do. The job situation there, employment, is better than here.
To wit: California, while it is, in my opinion, the most beautiful state, it does however favor those with heftier bank accounts. And right now, I do not have an active account (the lest transaction I was able to carry out was last October -- now Bank of America is trying to nab me for several dollars in what it calls "overdraft fees" -- those fees being simply what B of A charges on the checking account every month. How 'bout that?!).
At any rate, thank you so much to responding to this thread. I must now search elsewhere on the Internet for necessary news and further such stuff in order to figure things out further.
I will return to this thread as often as I can.
Thank you, people. (And I'm sorry to all those who, when I was an admin here, had to "pounce" on back when this place was so wild and sometimes unruly -- back when the Internet was younger. Boy, those were the days ...)
(who even still loves Zardoz)